[He'd point out that being dead doesn't mean you can't get hurt, but like she said, besides the point.]

I wasn't...

[He doesn't know why he even bothers explaining, but...]

If I could've found a way to get what I wanted without doing that, I would've. I didn't want to kill either of them. If Eliza hadn't come at me with that weapon...

[Not that it matters now anyway.]